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.However, they were together, something Lee and I weren’t, something we could never be.She had no future with me.I groaned in frustration, pulling my hair.“Dude what are you gonna do about Rachel? That bitch will go nuclear on Lee if she gets wind of the two of you.” I knew that.God why did he keep stating my fucking thoughts aloud, bad enough they were in my head.Fuck my life.“There is no me and Lee, you know why I can’t Derek,” I muttered.“Kyle, man you know I love you like you were my own little retarded brother right?” I glared at Derek, smart-assed little shit.He grinned, “So dude, please listen to me” I tensed, I knew what he was going to say, and I knew it would not make a blind shit of difference.“You gotta stop punishing yourself for what happened nearly two years ago.It wasn’t your fault Kyle.It was a fucking accident, that shouldn’t determine the rest of your life.Rachel is a big girl.You don’t have to go through with it dude.” I couldn’t look at him, he did not understand, “Yeah, I do man.”LEEIt was three weeks and six days before Kyle spoke to me again.Twenty-seven miserable days where I spent the time pretending not to be hurt, and he pretended I didn’t exist.He ignored me at home, avoided me at work, and I walked home every night from work alone.It was a Friday evening when the silence finally broke.I had finished my shift and leaving when Kyle grabbed my wrist and spun me back to face him, backing me up against the outside wall of the hotel.“We need to talk princess.” He leaned into me, his face inches from mine.The smell of whiskey off his breath blowing into my face was a wrecking ball to my self-control.If he thought he could click his fingers and I would come running, he had another thing coming.“Get away from me, you’re drunk,” I growled pushing at his chest with both of my hands.He did not budge.“Stop fucking running from me,” he retorted.“I’m not running, I’m leaving, there’s a difference.I’m ‘walking’ home,” I said brushing past him.“Fine I’ll walk with you.” He fell into step with me as I marched down the sidewalk.“Don’t put yourself out on my account, I’m sure you have plans already, I’m sure Rachel or one of your ‘friends’ would be more than thrilled to have your company, in fact that would make me ecstatic.” He looked hurt.“You’re my friend,” he said quietly.“No” I spat, anger building inside of me, “We are not friends anymore.I don’t need a friend like you.”I broke into a sprint, but he grabbed my elbow and dragged me back into his chest, “Jesus Lee I just want to speak to you.Why are you being so damn awkward?” he demanded.“Why are you? You could have spoken to me three weeks ago, but you didn’t.You ignored me.Now I’ve told you to leave me alone so please go right ahead.” I knew I sounded like a bitch but I was furious.“You’re fucking impossible, you know that Lee? I don’t know why I bother.” Ouch, that stung.“Yeah? I ask myself the same question about you Kyle,” I shouted, pressing my fingers to my temple.“Fuck,” he shouted, kicking the ground.People were gathering close by, we were causing a scene.“Are you alright there Lee?” Mike’s voice broke through the tension and I was never so happy to see him in my life.“She’s fine,” Kyle growled, “This is a private conversation asshole.” Kyle stepped in front of me as Mike approached.“It doesn’t look all that private to me, Boss.” Mike said as, stepping closer to us.I could hear the derisive way he said boss.Tension was emanating from both men and my nerves were in bits.“Actually I’m not feeling well.Mike, could you give me a ride home?” I edged away from Kyle towards him.Kyle grabbed my arm again.Leaning down to me, he growled, “Don’t go ANYWHERE with him.” I had enough of him and his macho crap.“Take your hands off me Kyle.You’re hurting me.” He released me as if I had burned him.I straightened my spine and walked over to Mike, taking his outstretched hand gladly.I was going to go apartment first thing tomorrow No room was worth this continuous heartache.LEE“Do you want to talk about it?” Those were the first words Mike had said as he pulled his car up in front of my house, Kyle’s house.I had waited in the hotel for a couple of hours for Mike to finish his shift and I was grateful for the delay.I did not want to home tonight.Several cars filled the driveway, and the kerb outside.Great, another damn party was all I needed.I unhooked my seat belt, and turned to face Mike.He was quite attractive, in an all-American way.He had a healthy look about him, broad and strong, and he had normal seat belts in his car.He was being real nice to me, and I felt incredibly awkward right now.It was not fair to cause trouble for him.I took a steadying breath.“I’m sorry about Kyle, it won’t happen again.I’m sorry that I dragged you into my personal life.” I was so embarrassed, my nerves frazzled.I felt like I walked into the twilight zone when I saw Kyle outside the hotel earlier.I could not keep up with him, and his mixed signals.If he wanted to speak to me, he could have anytime in the past three weeks.He chose not to though and I was not going to be a pushover for him anymore.I was not going to fall into his lap again, or his bed.His ignorance had hardened me.I was beginning to feel like Kyle hated me and wanted me all in the same breath.“I don’t mind being dragged in Lee.I’m concerned about you.” He looked at me with a sympathetic expression, his brown eyes warm
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