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.Sam and I well, yes we are a mess, that’s why I paid off Janet your right.To keep him safe, it’s what I do.Sam used that way was all because of me, and yes, I feel guilty all the time about it.I managed to get this Simon of hers transferred to a different branch of his bank, a nice new one in France and she went with him, but he messed up.That’s why they are back using the house, which is mine and she now pays proper rent to live there and work from there.I bought the house as a shag pad, you were correct quite right Sam didn’t suss I owned the house and still doesn’t know I own it, I’m selling it anyway if she doesn’t start earning money from it soon she won’t be able to pay the rent.She ran it and wants to run it again as a party place for people like us.Well, I’d had sex with her there too, as you know with Zoë and others, my own kind of sex, not what you and him do.Much darker more physical, pain and torture.I can’t tell you what I’m into its above your understanding.“Your into rope play and heavy sadomasochism, some very dark sex games and your right, ones I don’t want to know about, that isn’t love Andy, and that’s your trouble, its torture and pain and domineering there’s no love in that for you to get hurt, and that suits you Andy, but not Sam and certainly not me, but hey it would be a pretty damn boring place if we were all the same, wouldn’t it?”He looked very shocked at what I did know.I also knew from the pain his eyes and from the woman at his side he was tortured and abused, she said he was much troubled and disappeared saying he was in love with the wrong girl, he loved me, and loving me meant, we would end in tears, he would destroy me and I was to be careful, I had to be careful, he would destroy me if I wasn’t careful.She walked away, and I watched she disappeared, leaving me to think about her words, a tad cryptic, but I laughed, because Andy wasn’t capable of that type of love and he knew I loved only Sam not him.Damn these visions, they never tell me how to stop something just that its coming.“Well, aren’t you the dark horse Michelle Welles? Back to the house, not to put too fine a point on it she’s good at what she does, but all that was before she used my weak link in my armour, you see she knew Sam was, and still is my weakest link, he always has been and always will be, he’s my baby brother like you are with little JJ? I will kill for him and to keep him from danger Michelle, and don’t think I’m joking.He is the one I will walk over hot coals to make sure nothing bad happens to him.I love Mum and Jimmy, but for so long it was me and him against Dad and that made me need to protect him.Janet, that fucking bitch knew this, and well she used him against me, my brother, she made him her pawn, and dragged him into her web of deceit.Please believe me I knew nothing about it until, well I went for a session at the house and he came running out of the house.I thought he was just using it, to lose it the house is a brothel.I wrongly thought he’d paid for a girl.He was painfully shy, he was a skinny kid with spots and nothing like he is now, he couldn’t catch a cold let alone a girl and as you correctly pointed out, his friends had done it he wanted not to be left out, and I had suggested it, as a way to lose his virginity.I knew what Janet was capable of, she’s good at what she does Michelle, it was my fault she dragged him into our seedy circle, he never knew about me and I certainly didn’t know we were sharing a girl, as soon as I found out I broke all contact.Sam walked in on Janet with another fella and it broke his heart, it fucked him up in so many ways and all that was my fault too.Please if you do nothing else don’t tell him.I will tell him eventually but for now, please we have too much other crap to sort out without her too.”“I wouldn’t want to upset him, the things I heard her saying, made me want to kill her.If he had just told me, I would have been better prepared.However, we sorted it and I told him just enough to appease his need to ask more.I’m not stupid I know it would hurt him knowing you did her too.I’m glad photo girl has a name.I promise not to say anything, unless it comes between us and well I'll give you the heads up first, and we haven’t had sex, Andrew Todd.He’s definitely is messed up in that department, but well, when he’s ready, we will.”“Thanks Michelle, it was all her doing, I would never hurt him like that ever, and you’re some kind of girl, Michelle.I wish I’d seen you first you may have been able to save me too
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